Answer:OP you are so young and you don't need to feel so much pressure. It is totally normal and okay to feel scared or not know what you're doing. You might not feel like you're smart enough to begin anything, but you are. Most people feel unworthy when they begin something new, but that's just part of the learning process. You have just as much of a right to exist and take up space and try new things and make mistakes in this world as everyone else, and you don't need to justify that to anyone. If you're interested in becoming an engineer, you are allowed to try. Plenty of people, including myself, have tried out a major and then decided it wasn't for them. The world won't end if you decide want to do something different, you will just know that you tried your best and it wasn't meant to be, which is all you can do.
If you're worried about your math sk*lls, there are so many online resources out there for you to study at your own pace and it is actually very easy to get started with just a little effort. If you're like me (I was always TERRIBLE at math until I decided to really try), you might even find it empowering and really confidence-boosting to get better at something you previously felt scared of or terrible at.
Answer:I'm not the OP, but I'm basically in the same spot as you with the 'I was always terrible at math until I decided to really try,' how exactly did you get the first move on/start trying? I'm scared of making the first move/trying but I know that I'll eventually have to start a math problem.
Answer:Honestly, stress was my biggest motivator. I was 17 or 18 and I hardly knew how to divide or multiply because I was homeschooled and was never forced to learn how to do math so I never did. I realized there was just no future for me unless I learned enough math to get my GED, so I started trying. It was a little hard at first, but it was ultimately a really genuinely rewarding experience and gave me a lot more confidence in my own intelligence and my ability to just do new things. I learned a lot more math than I needed to and even tested out of a few college math classes because of it. Doing math became a relaxing and ther*peutic activity for me.
I really recommend the website Khan Academy. It may be a little childish in some ways, but don't let that stop you. It is by far the most valuable resource I had and has hundreds of excellent videos and exercises. I also swallowed my pride and read math books for kids, which are honestly very helpful if you can get past the shame (lel).
Answer:Yeah, I'm at the stage where I'm about to throw away my pride and just 'start' is there any other motivators?
Answer:You can't let this one, ultimately very small thing control the direction your life takes. You can't let it control which classes you feel like you can take, which jobs you can get, how much money you can make, and ultimately the kind of life you live and how other people will see you. Maybe that sounds really over the top, but I'm a really self-conscious person from a family of high-achievers and that's what it felt like the stakes were to me. Ultimately you have to want to overcome this, if you don't actually want to I don't know where you can really get motivation from. Just try to realize it will probably be much easier than you initially thought and it will be worth it if you want it.